God’s Will (Part 1)

 

First Things First

 

First of all, let us talk about God’s will.  As it is often asked, what is God’s will for my life?  Even more than that, before we talk about how to know what is God’s will for my life?  Let’s get some things straight first.  In order for any one to know what God’s will is, one must first know God.  One must first be a Christian.

Then the question might be “What is a Christian?”  Or who is a Christian?  What does it mean to be a Christian?

Christian is a terminology that means many things to many different people.  Let me illustrate what I mean here.

 

 

Culture

 

 

I have a friend whom I will call Jack here says he is a Christian.  Jack never goes to church.  In fact, he hates anyone who is religious.  He thinks it is a waste of time to go to church especially every week.  His wife drags him to church at Christmas.  Other than that, he never goes to church.  However, he insists that he is a Christian.  He thinks that anyone who wants the phrase “one nation under God” taken out of the pledge of allegiance should be shot.  Yet he never goes to church, because he thinks the churches are full of hypocrites and fanatics who try to impose their morality on others.  He acknowledges that he is not perfect, but at least, he is not a hypocrite himself.  He says it is the religious fanatics who lobby to make some counties dry meaning liquors are not allowed to be sold.  It is the religious fanatics who block state lotteries in states like Alabama, so the residents of Alabama drive to Tennessee, Georgia or Mississippi to buy their lottery tickets.  It is the religious fanatics who mess up fine ways of life under the guise of Christianity, Bible and morality.  Yet he claims to be a Christian and fully acknowledges the existence of God.  If I ask him how he is a Christian, he tells me that he is a Christian because he is an American.  Secondly, because he was born a Christian.  His parents took him to church, he was baptized in a church when he was a baby, and he believes in God – or should I say that he believes in the existence of God.  He says he believes in God in his own way.  Just he and God alone without anyone telling him how one should believe or behave, he deals with God directly.  Therefore, he says, he is a Christian.

 

 

Sunday Christian

 

 

John, as I call him here, goes to church almost every Sunday.  But extent of his connection to church or his Christianity is about two hours a week on Sundays.  Of course, he tries to be a moral and ethical person and does not do any thing bad or has committed any crimes.  After all, he goes to church almost every week.  Nonetheless, the awareness of God’s presence in his life is more or less absent during the six days of his week.  What do I mean “the awareness of God’s presence in his life?”  I am not talking about always telling people about Jesus or going to church almost everyday and participating in many of the church meetings.  What I am talking about is life style that is completely disconnected and disassociated with God, Bible and the church except for two hours on Sundays – that habitual trip down to church to hear some good sayings and be back home just in time for football games.  He enjoys singing and tells me that he particularly likes old hymns.  It brings him back to his youthful days when he used to go to church with his parents and singing those hymns.  Other than that he is finding it hard to make any connection to his church attendance and his life.  It is not simply making that trip down on Sunday and hurrying back home to catch the football games.  There is obviously more than what I have described.  Surely, there is that time around Thanksgiving, John feels that he is blessed, and gives credit to God.  He volunteers to feed the hungry by holding the serving spoon to a long line of homeless and hungry people at a feed-the-hungry-shelter.  He collects clothes and toys at Christmas time and donates them to charity, because it is a good thing to do and just because it is a good thing to do.  He believes it is noble to return what he has so abundantly, with a caveat that abundance is only comparative according to him.  Other than that, life goes on just like anyone else out there – just like millions of others who are busy bustling and hustling and rarely take time to think about why one lives and what God has anything to do with one’s life.  His morality and ethics and his desire to live “righteously” are not based on conscientious presence of Christ in his life, but based on his upbringing and social demand.  Most of the time, John is concerned about his career and money.  He talks about his 401K quite often and how to manage his money more effectively and efficiently.  Seldom he brings a conversation about spirituality or his church life.  Whenever I ask him about his church activity, he gives me his obligatory answer and quickly goes on to different subject.  Rarely if not ever thinks about “What is the purpose of my life in God?” and “How do I live a life that is driven by the purpose?”

 

 

Never Surrendered

 

 

Then there is the third type.  I know of a pastor in San Jose, California.  Pastor Ken and his wife Pam have served at a local church for more than ten years.  Prior to it, Pastor Ken served at some other churches for about ten years.  Together with his wife, they have been in ministry for over 17 years.  The local church where they served was not a mega church, but was not a small church either.

It was the year 1989.  There was a revival meeting in the Bay area.  Pastor Ken, his wife and the members of his church went to the revival meeting every night of the duration of the revival.  Some of the members made it every night and some others just some nights.  On the last night of the revival, the evangelist gave an invitation for anyone to come forward to accept Christ as he had done every night of the revival.  To the surprise of many, Pam went forward when the evangelist gave an invitation to receive Christ as personal Lord and Savior.  The members of Pastor Ken’s church who were present at the revival thought she went forward to rededicate her life.  However, Pastor Ken knew differently.  He just knew deep inside that his wife Pam did not go forward to rededicate her life.  Indeed, it was not the case.  Just as pastor Ken felt, Pam went forward to receive Christ as her personal Lord and Savior for the first time in her life.  Indeed, Pam gave her life to Christ on that night to Christ Jesus.

How is it possible?  What has happened?  Here she is, a pastor’s wife who has been a faithful partner of her husband’s ministry for the past 17 years, teaching Sunday school lessons, teaching Vacation Bible School, leading ladies’ Bible studies and so on …  But now she walks up to receive Christ?  How is it possible?

 

 

Three Types and in Between

 

 

What we have seen so far is the three types of people who claim to be Christians.  There are probably more types in between those three I mentioned, but largely there are these three types, not including the genuine and dedicated Christians.

First type is “I don’t go to church, but I’m a Christian.”  These are the ones who usually say one or more of the following:  the church is full of hypocrites; I don’t need someone to tell me how to believe in God.  I believe in God myself.  Just me and God – what is there to learn about believing in God?  Just believe.  I don’t understand why you have to learn to believe or have someone tell you how.  I am an American; I am a Christian.  I was baptized when I was a baby.  This type of person is certainly not a born-again Christian.  He or she adheres deeply to his or her upbringing and the familial tradition that his identity is defined by his own sub-culture.

 

American equals Christian?

 

Actually, we are all products of culture.  Dr. Charles Kraft, a cultural anthropologist, asserts in his book Christianity in Culture[1] that we are all immersed in our own culture.  Culture is socially learned ways of living.  It includes values, customs, beliefs and perhaps most importantly the patterns of thinking and perceiving.  We are so culture bound that everything we do is based on the way we think.  This is the reason why we feel different, awkward and uncomfortable when we go overseas even if we go to a place where they speak the same language.  It is worse if we go to a place where they speak different languages.  When we are in different cultural settings, rarely do we realize that the change of modus operandi is due to the way people think, not simply the way people do things.  I remember when I was in college, I spent about eleven months in France as an exchange student.  There were six of us from my university that participated in the exchange program.  For the first few months, especially the first month, all of us complained so much saying how everything was done wrongly and how everything seemed backwards in France.  The fact of the matter was that we were not used to the way things were done in France.  The real reason behind such thinking was that we did not understand the pattern of thinking by the French people.  As time went on, we started to point out to each other how each one of us was becoming more like the French.  What was happening was that we started to understand the French pattern of thinking and perceiving.  What they do, and how they do what they do are the products of the way they think, and we all started to understand the pattern.

I met a group of Americans in Japan one time.  These people had been living in Japan for at least 11 years.  One of them lived for 25 years, the other one, for 17 years, and the third one had lived only for 11 years.  They were all very fluent in Japanese and were carrying on a conversation in Japanese.  Finally, they switched to English and the one who had lived in Japan for 11 years told the others that the others were not only more comfortable speaking in Japanese but also accused them of forgetting how to speak English.  Certainly, they had not forgotten how to speak English.  They have been speaking Japanese everyday for the last 17 or 25 years that it was more convenient to speak Japanese especially speaking about the experiences that were unique to Japan.  All three were not only fluent in Japanese, but their demeanor and behavior were very much like the Japanese in many ways.  Their way of thinking had been very much influenced by the Japanese culture as well.  The point I am making here is that culture has profound effect on how we think and therefore the way we behave.

Some people say that America is a Christian nation.  It is a country that was founded by people who were Christians, but it is not a Christian country.  As a matter of fact, the Constitution of the United States strictly prohibits establishment of religion by the government.  Actually, it is the Bill of Rights, the first ten amendments to the U.S. Constitution, which was ratified in 1791.  It states that the Congress of the United States is not to make law respecting an establishment of religion.  America is not a Christian country.  England is a Christian country.  The Church of England is the officially established Christian church in England.  The British monarch, at present, Elizabeth II, has the constitutional title of Supreme Governor of the Church of England.  The fundamental legislation of the Church of England has to pass through the UK Parliament.  America is not a Christian country.  England is a Christian country.  However, the state of England’s Christianity is in jeopardy.  Many church building are being converted to Islamic Mosques.  At any rate, the United States is not a Christian country and there is an increasing trend in this country to separate all facets of religion, especially Christianity from all of our public life as well as our private life.  Many people from the Islamic countries think America is a Christian country.  When I was in college, I had many chances to meet students from Muslim nations around the world.  One of them became a Christian later on.  His name is Ali, as I will call him here.  He told me that he used to think America was a Christian country when he was living in his home country.  He was not the only one who thought of it that way; his parents, his relatives and friends at school all thought that America was a Christian country and everybody in America was a Christian.  At the same time, he watched American TV programs on his television set and thought what he saw on TV was the way Christians lived and behaved in America.  To his understanding, Christianity was not a religion like his religion in which strict moral code was to be observed, but it was just some affiliation that allowed killing, divorce and adultery just as he saw on TV all the time.  Whether the Ali’s around the world think America is a Christian nation or not, the United States is not a Christian nation.  By the way, Ali became a Christian and is now a pastor of an Arab church in Southern California where he is having a vibrant Christian ministry not only to Arabs, but also to the people of the community and on college campuses in the Southland.

Despite the fact that the United States is not a Christian nation, there are many Americans who think that this is a Christian nation and being American is synonymous to being Christian.  Just because you recite the Pledge of Allegiance, in which a phrase “one nation under God” exists, it does not make you a Christian.  Just because your parents go to church every Sunday, it does not make you a Christian.  Just because you went to church when you were a child, it does not make you a Christian.  Just because you were baptized when you were a baby, it does not make you a Christian.  Just because you have a cross pendant hanging on the rear view mirror of your car, it does not make you a Christian or that cross will protect you from any car accidents.

 

Culturally bound

 

I have a friend who is a Muslim, or should I say, he claims to be a Muslim.  He is married to a Christian, or should I say, she claims to be a Christian.  Every Easter, she likes to have the whole family get together and have a lamb dinner.  Every thanksgiving, she likes to have the whole family get together, have a turkey dinner, and thank God for the blessings.  Nevertheless, she never goes to church.  Her husband, my friend, insists that he is a Muslim, but he never goes to the Mosque either.  He does not object to Easter dinner or thanksgiving to God of Christianity.  He, however, refuses to become a Christian.  I asked him how he could be a Muslim and never goes to a Mosque.  His response was that he did not need anybody telling him how to believe or what to believe.  Does it sound familiar?  He says that he is a Muslim because he was born a Muslim and he will always be a Muslim.  However, he does not need some Mullahs[2] who are nothing more than hypocrites to tell him how to believe or what to believe.  He says that he is an intelligent man and he can read and be able to think critically and logically, thus he is able to read the Qur'an himself.  Yet he never reads the Qur'an.  He then went on to say the same about Christians and the Christian ministers.  He added by saying however that respected my dedication to my religion, but it was not for him.  Here again, culture plays a significant role in the lives of both my friend and his wife.  She clings to her cultural upbringing the way she knows how.  It is the world of her familiarity and makes her feel secure and comfortable.  When she was little, on Easter Sunday, everybody in the family gathered together and her mother used make a lamb dinner.  It was not a religious experience for her, but a very profound childhood experience that lasted up to her adulthood.  It was the time of gathering of the family, feast and good time that made her feel warm and fuzzy.  She merely wants to continue the same tradition in her own family, because it is a good thing to do.  At the same time, gathering of the family and lamb dinner is a common Easter practice in America.  For my friend, it is a good tradition, a very family oriented tradition, and at the same time, he knows well that Jesus is no more significant in his wife’s life as He is in his life.  In other words, it is not a threat to him.  In fact, he regards Jesus as a man of good moral and holds His teachings in high esteem.  Whatever she believes does not threaten his world, because religion has as much significance in her life as it is in his life.  Whatever they claim to be, whether it be Christian or Muslim, it is nothing more than a mere family and cultural tradition that refuses to go away for the reason of familiarity and comfort.  Christian or Muslim, to them is a terminology of his or her culture, not a terminology of a belief that governs thoughts and behavior and that which identifies who they are before the gods of their beliefs.

Nonetheless, Christianity is supra-cultural.  In other words, culture does not define what a Christian is, but only the Word of God defines what a Christian is.  Certainly, in the Bible, God communicated His truth in cultural terms in order that the people of biblical times may understand, however, using cultural terms was to aid people to grasp the concept, and that is all it was.  One’s earthly citizenship is not a qualification for an entrance to the kingdom of God.  The only requirement to become a Christian is that you surrender your life to Jesus Christ.  Whether you are American or French has no bearing on your stand before God.  We really need to become conformed to God’s will by becoming supra-cultural in order to become a true biblical Christian.  We will be talking more about how culture can affect our way of Christian living through out the this book.

 

Have to give up too much?

 

Some say that they don’t want to become a Christian because they don’t want to give up their life style.  I have a friend who works hard to make money and tries to succeed in his business.  He has, what the world says, a fine work ethics.  When it comes to his business, he is diligent and always tries to deliver superior products and quality.  He keeps all his appointments on time and has a reputation as someone who can be trusted for business purposes.  He truly excels in everything and tries his best when it comes to his business.  However, his personal life was a little different.  He does not have a regular sleeping habits or eating habits.  He sleeps and eats when he could or when he has time.  He enjoys drinking at such places like a club.  When there is an occasion to meet his friends, his friends always arrive at the meeting place at least 20 to 30 minutes late, because they know he is always at least 20 to 30 minutes late.  He leads a promiscuous life style and does not think twice about jumping into a bed with a stranger.  He and I went to the same college.  After graduation, we both headed out to California with a good job in the aerospace industry.  Though we worked for different companies, we met occasionally.  One day, I had an opportunity to talk to him about my faith and asked him to accept Jesus.  His response was that he respected me and respected my faith, and that he would never ask me to give up my faith or ask me to skip church on Sundays to go somewhere to have fun with him.  However, he could not become a Christian, because he liked the way he lived and he did not want to give up his life style.  The reason he refused to become a Christian was that it meant giving up everything he enjoyed.  Even though he did not think what he enjoyed was wrong, unethical or immoral, he knew that maintaining such as lifestyle would be inconsistent with the principles of Christianity.  He knew that he would be a hypocrite – the very same thing that he accused many people of being.  He loved the world too much that he could not give up the temporary enjoyment that would eventually lead him to destruction.  Just as 1 John 2:15 and 16 tells us, “Do not love the world nor the things in the world. If anyone loves the world, the love of the Father is not in him.  For all that is in the world, the lust of the flesh and the lust of the eyes and the boastful pride of life, is not from the Father, but is from the world.”  So he politely refused to become a Christian.  He is a very jolly and always a joking person, but at that moment, I had never seen him so serious; yet he refused a new life of purpose and fulfillment.  He was in bondage to his sinful way of life that provided temporary satisfaction and relief.  He refused to take on a life of eternal and everlasting joy and fulfillment.

 

Hypocrites

 

Then he went on to add that he knows quite a few people who attend the church, but they were all hypocrites.  In fact, this is one of the top reasons people cite as the reason for their not going to church.  There are so many people who are turned off by so-called “hypocrisy” that they refuse to go to church.

I keep saying that this is one of the top reasons, but actually, it is one of the top excuses among the unsaved people.  What they do not realize is that, first of all, we are not to look at people for standards of life.  Bible commands us to fix your eyes on Jesus (Hebrews 12:1-2a).  If you look at people for your standards, first of all, you yourself are such an inconsistent example.  Also, others have different standards that it would be impossible to find any objectivity in anything.  I realize that it is hard just to ignore those so-called “hypocrites.”  It can be very discouraging.  Life, however, can be discouraging period.  Does it mean that you live in isolation?  There once was a very rich man who led a very flamboyant life style, then disappeared into isolation.  He had a mansion and servants, but he lived in one room without going outside of that room and seeing only one servant for his daily needs plus his doctor.  Eventually, he died in that room and left enormous amount of money to medical research.  I do not know why he did what he did, but we know that we cannot live that way. 

Secondly, you have to remember that not everyone who goes to church is genuinely saved.  Even if some are genuinely saved, they are still not perfect as you are not perfect.  It is always easy to spot what is wrong with anything.  When you have a room full of people and ask what is wrong with something, they will come up with a list of things without any difficulty.  But if you ask what they could do to resolve those wrongs, most of the time, they will have hard time coming up with the words. 

When I was a missionary in Taiwan, I went to a language school to learn Mandarin Chinese.  Every year, my language school sponsors a Chinese speech contest for the foreigners in Taiwan.  The speech had to be only a few minutes about Taiwan.  I entered the contest one year and talked about the way Taiwanese people lived.  There were quite a few people entered the contest.  There were nuns from South America, monks from Italy, and missionaries from America and Korea, and businessmen and women from all over the world.  Most people talked about how Taiwan could be improved in many different ways.  But they never really suggested how to bring about the improvements; mostly talked about what is wrong in a very gentle and unoffending way, but did not suggest any practical ways to improve.  On the other hand, the top three winning speeches were about how the foreigners experienced something unique in Taiwan that involved good nature of the people of Taiwan.

It is always easy to see what is wrong with other people.  Jesus pointed out to us that it is always easy to see the “speck” in the other person’s eye while we are unable to see the “log” in our own eyes (Matthew 7:3, 4).  Indeed, we are all guilty of this infraction.  We may point our fingers to those who are not walking the talk.  However, when we look at ourselves, there is always a rationale for what we do.  Even if it is wrong, there are always legitimate reasons for it.

When you look at Christians acting in a hypocritical way, it is easy to spot and point fingers.  First of all, they may not all be genuine Christians.  Even if they are genuinely born-again Christians, they are all on the way of becoming more and more like Jesus Christ – at least that is the intention and the goal of many.  Would you not spend any money and burn all the cash you have, because there are so many counterfeit bills circulating?  The same is true for life in the church.  Ignore the hypocrites.  Just as the people who had winning speech at the speech contest, look for the good in people and imitate the good and shun the bad.  At the same time, fix your eyes on Jesus Christ the author and perfecter of faith (Hebrews 12:2).  Do not make excuses for your not going to church to hypocrites or label someone you do not even know as hypocrites.

 

Discernment

 

Some of these people always say, “Didn’t Jesus say we are not supposed to judge others?”  “How can you say that I am not a Christian just because I don’t go to church?”  They seem to know the Bible by quoting Matthew 7:1, but if you carefully examined this Christ's command, "Do not judge, or you too will be judged” (Matthew 7:1), in light of what He said following, we would know exactly what He meant by the preceding command.  He said, "You hypocrite, first take the plank out of your own eye, and then you will see clearly to remove the speck from your brother's eye” (Matthew 7:5).  He was simply saying that we should not seek to correct a person when we are guilty of the same.  We need to deal with our own sin, and then we can help others.  Jesus never intended that His disciples or us for that matter that we should set aside all exercise of discernment or judgment. 

Later in the same message Jesus told us to watch out for false prophets.  A good tree cannot bear bad fruit, and a bad tree cannot bear good fruit.  Thus, by their fruit we will be able to recognize the good fruit and the bad fruit (Matthew 7:15-20).  Therefore, we may exercise, and in fact, must exercise the discernment God has given to us.  God alone, of course, knows the motives and intent of a person's heart.

It is also important to consider the spirit in which we seek to correct others.  Even if we had been guilty of the same wrongful deeds, we need to judge or correct another in a spirit of love, compassion, and humility.  The Bible says, "Brothers, if someone is caught in a sin, you who are spiritual should restore him gently.  But watch yourself, or you also may be tempted.  Carry each other's burdens, and in this way you will fulfill the law of Christ” (Galatians 6:1-2). 

 

Genuinely saved?

 

There are some who go to church regularly, but when he or she leaves the church parking lot, he leaves his or her Christianity at the parking lot too.  Occasionally, he or she may be motivated by some great sermons or some special speakers’ passionate and convicting messages that motivates him or her to seek to live a more spiritual life, but the flame fizzles quickly as time goes on and the busyness of life catches up with that person.  Before you know it, this person is right back to his normal way of life in which he is occupied with the daily concerns and things such as career, money, problems with children, etc. while living-according-to-God’s-will takes a back seat until I-have-time.

One of the colleagues with whom I used to work attended the church just about every Sunday.  He drove quite a distance to go the church.  The church he attended was a well known church in the Southland (Southern California).  The pastor of the church had a nationally syndicated radio program and he was a widely sought after speaker at conferences and workshops.  The young and old, men and women all liked his messages, which were poignant yet funny, often motivating and convicting.  He was not active in his church; in fact, he acknowledged that he merely attended the church.  He went to this particular church, because he liked the preaching.  He thought the music was good and the message kept him focused rather than causing him to fall asleep.  He went, watched the show (in a manner of speaking), came home afterwards, and felt pretty good for having gone to church and listening to somewhat entertaining, and intellectually and emotionally motivating messages.

There is a difference between being committed to the idea of faith and being committed to the object of faith.  My colleague was committed to the idea of faith.  For whatever reason that motivated him to be committed to the idea of faith, he was satisfied with the extent of his commitment, but not to the object of faith through a personal relationship with Jesus. 

While I was attending the seminary, I went to Urbana Mission Conference.  Urbana is a biennial missions conference that is held on the campus of University of Illinois at Urbana-Champaign.  Every year during the conference, they recognize all the colleges represented.  They have each college group sit in the same general area and have those groups stand with their school signs up.  I was sitting up in the balcony area that night and was able to have a bird’s eye view of almost the entire floor level.  When the students from my university got up from their seats and held the university sign up high, I felt good to know that many of the students came to the conference showing their interest in missions.  However, when Billy Graham gave an invitation to receive Christ as he always does, many of the students from my university got up from their seats.  Was I surprised?  No, I was not surprised that some got up.  Yes, I was surprised that so many got up.  Did I think it was unthinkable?  No!

In order to enter this particular Christian university, one must be a born-again Christian.  In the application form, one is to write out his or her testimony regarding how he or she became a Christian.  The problem here is that everyone knows the right answer.  If you have been in a church long enough, you know the right answer, and it would not be difficult to write the right answer down.  I do not mean that these students outright lied or wrote what they did not feel at all in order to be admitted to the university.  I am sure almost all of them wrote what they felt was their experience.  The key word here is “feel.”  They felt that way because of the environment they were in or because they thought being a Christian is the right thing to do or to be.  They have heard the right answer over and over that when it became necessary to articulate their faith, the best-known answer – the standard one that they heard over and over – came to be the basis of their personalized answer.  Don’t be deceived just because you are in an environment.  I personally know many teenagers who spend countless hours at the church while they were in high school, but when they went on to college, they stop going to church.  When they left the environment, they left their faith also.  They left it at their high school as well.  The statistics show that seven out of ten teenagers do not attend the church when they go to college.  Were all these seven teens basically wasted their time at the church or did they just have a good time at the church, because after all, the kids at the church are supposed to be better than the kids you hang around else where? 

People usually know what is appropriate.  At a stranger’s house, it is not appropriate to “make yourself at home.”  If you go to a wedding, it is not appropriate to wear Jeans and T-shirts.  At a Rock concert, it is appropriate to scream yet only at the right moment.  At the church, it is appropriate to do what is “church-thing.”  While doing the “church-things” with the close friends, you may have good times together and at the same time, you may hear the messages over and over, but if you do not have a genuine relationship with Jesus, it is no more than a noble activity in a setting of noble environment.  Feelings and environments can play tricks on hearts and minds of those who are not mindful.  Being a part of any organization and doing the “thing” that the organization endorses should not be confused with genuine surrender to Jesus Christ and the need for continual nurturing of such relationship.

 

Habitual?

 

Then there are those who are far more than just a body count at a church.  She or he not only participates in many of the church activities, but also from time to time, leads some of the activities including teaching Sunday school lessons, working with the youth, singing in the choir, visiting the infirmed at senior homes, etc.  Nevertheless, this type of person may never have surrendered her life over to Jesus.  How is that possible?  One may ask.

Let me talk about Mary, as I will call her here.  Mary was a very dedicated college student who was involved in many church activities including playing the keyboard for the church praise band that performed on a weekly basis.  She was always the first one to arrive at the weekly praise band practice on Saturdays.  She came to every college activity at the church.  Some of her best friends were from the same church.  She even took leadership positions on some of the special programs at the church.  One day, as I was starting a discipleship program for the high school students, I was looking for a female college student to disciple some of the high school girls.  Mary somehow found out that I was looking for someone to disciple high school girls, and came to me to volunteer for that very position.  I asked her about her baptism and salvation experience.  The response I got was not surprising.  She told me that she never chose to be baptized because she did not see the need.  If she knew that she was saved, what was the point of being baptized since baptism itself does not have the power to save her.  As far as she was concerned, she was saved and that was good enough.  She did not need any ceremonial or conventional superficiality according to her. 

I went on to ask her about how she became a Christian.  Again, her response was as follows.  She was reared in a church.  As far back as she could remember she had always attended the church.  She knew she was a Christian.  She just knew and that was the end of the story. 

She could not articulate the experience of surrendering her life to Christ.  She did not have a definite point in her life or a period in her life where she came to know Jesus in a personal way.  She had always been a Christian as far as she was concerned.  She thought it was not necessary for her to have a so-called conversion experience, because her whole life was an experience with God.  She had always attended the church with her parents first, and now she is a college student, she came on her own and came willingly.  She knew that the church was a place for Christians and gradually she came to know that she was one of the Christians.  Besides she never did any drugs or anything bad that she did not have to have any drastic change in her life style.  That is where we finished our conversation. 

When someone says, everything is good, to me, it usually means nothing is really good.  When she said she had been a Christian all of her life, it meant she was not sure if she really was a Christian ever.  According to her, she gradually came to realize that she was a Christian.  She had no instance or a period in her life that could demarcate a new life in Christ.  The Bible tells us that when you become a Christian, you are a new creature (2 Corinthians 5:17).  If you were new, you would know that there is a difference.  For her to say that she had been a Christian all of her life and nothing had changed meant she never really had given her life over to Christ.

About a year after this conversation, I left that church to become a missionary to Taiwan.  Some time after I left that church, I had a chance to talk to some of the college students from that church.  I asked about Mary.  They told me that Mary was no longer a part of the praise band.  Not only that, she was no longer attending the church.  My immediate response was “Where is she going to church now?”  The fact of the matter was that she was not going to church at all.  They told me that about six months after I left that church, she had some relationship problems with the friends at the church.  They did not know if it had anything to do with it or not, but around the same time, she started to doubt everything about God and Christianity.  She began to feel that she had been taught wrongly about everything as if she had been deceived all of her life.  She was not sure if she was a Christian, and furthermore she doubted if everything she believed was real or not.  She still acknowledged the existence of God, but she doubted the validity of all of the Christian teachings.  She even felt bitter toward her parents and the church for the so-called deception that had surrounded her life to that point.

What happened here?  Here she is, dedicated and so involved in activities wanting to disciple younger girls how to be a better Christian.  She all of a sudden doubts everything and she did not want to have anything to do with church or Christianity any more?  How is that possible?  Jesus said, “You search the Bibles, because you think that in them you have eternal life” (John 5:39a).  You may be engaged in all kinds of activities at your church thinking that you are indeed devoted, but Jesus said “it is these that bear witness of Me” (John 5:39b).  What He meant was that all that you do must be based on the genuine relationship with Christ Himself.  Without knowing Jesus personally, all that you do are in vain; the end result is like Mary did not know Jesus personally, but busy doing the “church-thing.” 

Many of us go through the motions of familiarity and stay in our comfort zone without realizing what we do is nothing more than a routine.  Mary had never surrendered.  Today, Christians talk about commitment all the time.  How one is committed and so and so is a committed Christian, etc.  The result of commitment is your active trust in that which you have committed.  To surrender is to give up completely of yourself over unto the power of the one to whom you are surrendering.  We need to surrender ourselves to Jesus Christ.  Commitment is commendable, but surrender is obligatory.

Bible talks about a person who built his house on the sand.  When “the rain fell, and the floods came, and the winds blew and slammed against that house; and it fell and great was its fall” (Matthew 7:27).  On the contrary, the one who built his house on the rock, even when “the rain fell, and the floods came, and the winds blew and slammed against that house; and yet it did not fall, for it had been founded on the rock” (Matthew 7:25).  Christ has laid the foundation.  Every thing besides Christ is sand.  Mary may have built her faith upon an outward profession of religion without ever surrendering herself to Christ, the rock of salvation.  Whatever triggered her to doubt her faith and caused her to abandon her faith was the storm that hit the house that she built.  It was the flood and the rain that caused the house to fall.  During the time of storm is when you need the house more than any other time.  But her house fell.  How is your house?  Is it built on the rock?

 

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[1] Charles H. Kraft, Christianity in Culture, pg.170, Orbis Books, Maryknoll, NY, 1979, Revised 2005

[2] Islamic clergy